Monday, March 16, 2015

The Journey Continues: An Update and How Cancer has Changed My Husband

I haven't posted an update in a while and several people have asked me for an update.  Richard is doing well.  He did have an endoscope last month and will have another follow up one.  They found that he had swelling and ulcers on his esophagus.  They had no idea why he was not in pain.  They did start him on treatment and he is supposed (emphasis on the supposed) to be eating blander food. His counts have been good and his appointment with his cancer doctors are every two months.   His immunoglobins still run low  and about every three months he gets hooked up for an infusion.  He acts like he feels better and has been cooking like crazy.  I am trying to ignore the cookies, coconut and banana cream pies that keep calling my name.  I have had my limit of pie for the rest of the year in the last two days!

There have been many changes since Richard's cancer diagnosis and I am going to tell you about one of them today.  Before cancer sometimes my husband was just a tad impatient with me when I would get sick.  He would be good for maybe the first day or two but after that I could tell by his tone of voice or his body language that it was time for me to get well.  The way that he would do dishes or sweep the floor was far louder than any word he might have spoken.  Don't misunderstand me, I am not saying that he was mean to me but impatient.

This is how something that is bad can become a blessing.  The way cancer has changed my husband has had many good side effects.  I am not saying that he doesn't get impatient, mad or frustrated but there is a change.  I have not really been sick since November 2012.  I have had two virus' that did not last long.   I did not have to see a doctor and I didn't miss work but they just made feel yucky for a few days.  The second time that I didn't feel well is when I saw something that cancer had changed in him.  He was very concerned and kept asking me how he could help me.

On the second or third day of feeling yucky this is what he said to me when I came into the living room after getting dressed for the day.  He said that he had prayed for God to give my affliction to him.  What an amazing change that God has brought forth in my husband's life through this journey with cancer.

God can change you too!  God can help you with your afflictions!  Just give Him your heart and see what can happen!

John 3:16-17New International Version (NIV)

16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. 17 For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.

Thursday, February 5, 2015

Finding the Code

Monday after work I rushed to the post office so that after I finished there I could get home and relax.  I was tired and ready to  get home.  The one I went to is at a small town to the west of where I live and is easier to get in and out of than the one in the downtown area where I live.  I had two packages and a letter to mail.  I grabbed those items and hurried into the post office.

I got everything taken care of and talked with the post office lady for a few minutes and then reached into my pocket for my keys.  They weren't there.  I emptied all my pockets but alas no keys.  The post office lady went with me as I went out to my vehicle.  She looked inside on the passenger side and yes, she spotted my keys laying in the center console.  Those were my only set of keys.

I called my husband and after a few minutes of silence he reminded me that I had a code to use that would open the door.  After a few seconds of silence I asked him if he knew the code.  He didn't but I remembered that my daughter had it in her phone.  Her phone was at home plugged in and she was at flute lessons.  He stopped by her flute lessons but she didn't remember it. So my wonderful husband drove home, got the phone and than met her at her work.

Meanwhile back at the post office I was trying to figure out a way to relax and remember the code.  I tried and tried to remember the code but it was not to be. There is not a way to relax in a small post office with no chairs. In fact I don't know that I have ever seen a post office that has chairs.  I am thinking that maybe they need to rethink their post office lobbies. They just never know when someone might be stranded in one of their lobbies.  I leaned against the table.  I walked around.  I tried to rub my aching back.  I leaned against the wall.  I had been on my feet for the previous three hours except for my drive to the post office.  I thought about going out to my vehicle to try to sit on the bumper but the wind was quite chilly.  I was leaning against the door when I got the call.  My husband had the code.

I was elated and hurried to my car.  The code worked and soon I was sitting, with my seat warmer sending warmth up through my aching back.  I drove back to Enid and was soon relaxing on my couch. I think I need to make sure that I have that code written down to take with me everywhere I go.

I do have a code that I will never forget.  It is imprinted in my heart.  This code has paved the path to freedom.  The code helps me to be brave when otherwise I would be afraid.  This code is with me everywhere I go. It has given me strength and endurance that I would never have on my own.  This code has paved my way to heaven.  My pockets will never be empty.  I can relax I will always have the code.

The code is Jesus!  Do you have the code?

John 14:6 (NIV)

Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.

John 3:16-17(NIV)

16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. 17 For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.


Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Time Flies and the Buzzing of Flys


I was having a text conversation with a good friend of mine when the subject came up of how long we have known each other.  We met about twenty years ago.  It just seems like yesterday that I met this wonderful woman who became a friend and mentor, but it has been years.  It was mentioned about how time flies.  For some reason that made me think of the lifespan of buzzing flys.  Those annoying little things that buzz around your head actually only live about four weeks.

It make me think about how I let little things annoy me.   I hear buzzing instead of words.   I forget that life really is flying by and I need to slow down, listen and enjoy the friends that God has given to me.  I have many friends that I love to visit with, do things with and text with but I have let the buzz of life erase time that I could have spent with these friends.

Then there is the buzz of family.  The buzzing of family sometimes feels like a roar and I sometimes don't even remember what was said.   It is hard to get away from the buzz of family. I have family that sounds like buzz, buzz, buzz but I do love to talk and spend time with my family.

I think that worst of all is the buzzing that I hear sometimes when God is talking to me. Sometimes I let time constraints buzz into Bible reading and all I can think of is that I have to hurry, time is flying.  God wants me to hear, read His Word and feel His Spirit. He wants me to slow down and hear what family and friends are saying.  God wants me to use my time for Him.  He wants me to be still, listen and forget that time is buzzing by.

James 1:19 (NKJV)

19 So then, my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath;

Monday, January 26, 2015

Mopping the way to cleanliness

I have two part time jobs and at the second one I fix a meal and clean daily.  This job is also Monday through Friday.  On Friday I was looking for something else to clean and decided that I would mop again.  The floors looked clean but I needed something to do.  I got out the mop bucket and the mop and started through the house.  The floors look very clean when I was through but I still thought that the water would not be that dirty, after all I had mopped two days before.  To my surprise when dumping the water it was very dirty.  I guess every day that dirt and grime is being tracked into that house with the comings and goings of different people.

I was on my way home when it hit me.  I am just like that.  I track dirt and grime into my soul everyday.  I allow thoughts, moods, tiredness and other people to influence my thoughts and actions.  I need to mop out my soul daily with prayers, reading the Bible and listening to the Holy Spirit.  I need to allow the dirt and grime to be mopped daily from my life.

Do you need to be mopped today?

1 John 1:9 (NIV)

If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.

Wednesday, January 7, 2015

You can be Pardoned!

I think that there is someone out there that needs to hear this today!

I am pardoned but not perfect.  No matter what I had done I was still pardoned.  Even though I was mired in the path of sin I was forgiven!  I still sin but I am still pardoned. I know that this might seem unreal to You but it is so.  There was someone that took my sins as His own.  His name is Jesus.  He is my Savior!

When I sin now, I feel regret and sorrow but I am still pardoned.  No matter what I do Jesus is still my Savior.  I ask Him at the age of eleven to come into my heart and forgive me for my sin.  He did and He will do that for you to.  When I sin now I feel a guilt and regret that I did not feel before and I take it back to my Savior and tell Him that I am sorry.  I am still saved and pardoned but never perfect.

I will one day meet my Savior face to face and be completely changed and healed of my sin problem forever!

Have you been pardoned?  Maybe today is the day!

John 3:16-17New International Version (NIV)

16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. 17 For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.

Follow God’s example, therefore, as dearly loved children and walk in the way of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.

Thursday, December 25, 2014

A Present of Joy for All

Today I was looking at the presents that I had wrapped and put under the tree.  Some of them look almost presentable, some of them not so.  I do not have the gift of gift wrapping.  Though some of the presents that I wrap look down right messy the gifts inside are pretty nice.  Sometimes it is a guessing game on what to give.  I am hoping that the recipients of the gifts will find joy in them.  The gifts that I have given to various people this year have scents, can be worn or can be eaten.  I am just hoping that when the gifts are opened they will be received with joy.  Sometimes I can tell if a gift brings joy or if it is just another ho hum gift.  

There is a present waiting for all.  Some have already opened it but some won't.  Some are scared, some are angry and some are just stubborn.  Today we are celebrating the birth of a Heavenly King.  Our Lord and Savior came as  a present of joy to all.  It is never a ho hum gift!  If you haven't accepted this gift, today, this day that we celebrate the birth of this present of joy for all, would be a great day.  It doesn't matter if you are messy, tidy or somewhere in between this is the best gift of all!

Don't keep waiting!

Luke 2:10 (NIV)

10 But the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid. I bring you good news that will cause great joy for all the people.

John 3:16-17New International Version (NIV)

16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. 17 For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

The Bridge


The other night I had a dream about a bridge.  I was walking down this dirt road.   The road had plenty of trees hanging across and overgrown grass on the side of the road.  I came to a bridge and it seemed to be the only way to continue down the road.  I hesitated because it didn't seem very stable.  In fact it looked like it could break at anytime.  For some reason I didn't want to turn back and I stepped very carefully onto the bridge.  I got halfway across the bridge and saw a gaping hole that was blocking the way to the other side of the bridge.  I decided that I  would skirt around that hole and continue across the bridge.  I very carefully held on to the side and walked very slowly to get around that hole.  The next thing I knew I was falling and screaming.  I was looking down at murky, alligator infested waters.  I screamed as I plunged towards the water but woke up before I hit the murky, alligator infested waters.

I woke up sweating and wondering why on earth would I even in my sleep cross a bridge or even be on a road that was overgrown with trees and grass.  I realized though that in life I am always going down roads or crossing bridges that I should not.  I step into situations that I should turn around and walk the other way.  I walk across bridges that become worse the more steps I take.  Sometimes it is even to late to turn around and walk the other way because the murky, alligator, infested waters have infested my soul.  I am lucky though!  I have a Bridge that I walk across that will cleanse my soul and remove the murky, alligator infested water. My Bridge is solid and cleanses me daily. His name is Jesus!

Do you know Him?  He is waiting for you to walk across His Bridge!

Romans 8:1

There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit.

1 John 2:6

He who says he abides in Him ought himself also to walk just as He walked.