Tuesday, January 19, 2016

The Journey Continues:Caregivers

Yesterday morning when I got to the hospital I found my husband just a tad upset with the caregiver that had taken care of him during the night.  It seems that if someone is going to be a nurse or an aide then that person should keep their personal opinions  to themselves.  I am thinking that when you are a caregiver you should take an oath to treat everybody the same whether you like them or not.

Now I am not saying that my husband or any other patient is never wrong, or cranky but to the nurse or aide their motto should always be that the patient comes first no matter how many times that they push their call button.  You signed up for this!!  I have also noticed during the eight hours or so that I am with my husband during the day that some of nurses or aides during the time that I am there come to work cranky and they don't leave it at the door when they walk into the hospital.

The night aide called my husband a name as he left the room the night before as he left the room.  My husband also made the comment that he had heard him call another patient a name the night before.  Of course I talked with the head nurse and Richard didn't have this particular aide last night but I hope that that aide was told he needs to treat the patient with dignity and respect!

Okay rant over but I can tell you that there is One who treats us all the same.  It doesn't matter if a person is sick and cranky.  It doesn't matter if it is an opinionated caregiver.  It doesn't matter if that person is beautiful or ugly.  It doesn't matter if a person is rich or poor.  The One that came to die on the cross came so that we might have eternal life and His name is Jesus!

If you are a caregiver having a hard time being nice to patients that you don't like, or  that you think push that call button one to many times, you can leave it at the Saviors feet.  If you are the patient being called names and have cranky caregivers you can leave it at the Saviors feet!  If you are that upset spouse you can leave it at the Saviors feet.  No matter where you are or what your mission in life is you can leave your sin at the Saviors feet!  He doesn't care how many times you push His call button! Jesus is the ultimate Caregiver!

Do you know my Savior?  He is the one that can give you the grace to treat people with dignity and respect!

John 3:16-17New International Version (NIV)

16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. 17 For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.

Monday, January 18, 2016

When the Sky is Gray


This morning I saw the sun peeking through the clouds!  The last few days it has been cold and cloud covered.  Now I don't mind the gray days.  I like cuddling up with my cover and reading a book.  Sometimes I use the days like that to clean.  I know though that there are those that do not like gray days.  They seem to shut down and maybe get a little depressed.  I know though that even though I can't see the sun, it is still there.

It also reminded me that there is a Son that peeks through the clouds and that there are times when I don't see or feel my Savior.  I let the happenings, words and tiredness cloud  the presence of my Lord.  I have to remember that there are times when I won't feel the presence of my Lord but that doesn't mean He is not there.  Those are the days to cuddle up and read the Bible.  Those are the days to clean my heart and rid it of of sin and insecurities.  I know that even though there are times I don't feel the presence of the Lord that He is always there!

What do you do when the sky is gray?  What do you do when your heart is gray?

John 8:12

When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, “I am the light of the world.Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.

Psalm 89:15  

 Blessed are those who have learned to acclaim you,
    who walk in the light of your presence, Lord.

Thursday, January 14, 2016

The Journey Continues:The Crooked Road that Leads to the Lopsided Mountain


A friend asked me the other day, on private message, about my husband.  So I proceeded to tell her how the week had went and what was going on.  I ended it with, "It could be the Crooked Road that Leads to the Lopsided Mountain".   She was intrigued and wondered what that meant.

Richard has been fighting Cancer since 2009 and finally the first cancer went in remission in the fall of 2013, then this past year he was diagnosed with a new cancer, esophageal cancer.  The radiation and chemo seemed really hard on him but it was all part of that crooked road.  A cat scan has shown that the tumor is still there but it has shrunk.   After the treatments were over he was starting to feel better and then another crook in the road showed up with pneumonia and two different stays in the hospital.  Looking down the road thinking the beautiful mountain might be in sight weakness set in and Richard found himself not being able to get out of chairs, getting stuck and other things I will not mention. It does seem that the mountain became quite lopsided.

A straight road and beautiful mountain will not exist until we get to heaven.  The road here on earth is scattered with crookedness.  The beautiful mountain that is trying to be attained will always just be beyond our reach because when you attain it, it will always be lopsided.  This is not to say that there are not good times or fun times because there are.  They are all there on that crooked road that leads to the lopsided mountain.

The good news is that there is a Savior that will help a person down the crooked road that leads to the lopsided mountain.  The crooked road and lopsided mountains are part of the journey.  The Journey that will lead to Jesus!

Where is your crooked road leading you?

Luke 3:4-6New International Version (NIV)

As it is written in the book of the words of Isaiah the prophet:
“A voice of one calling in the wilderness,
‘Prepare the way for the Lord,
    make straight paths for him.
Every valley shall be filled in,
    every mountain and hill made low.
The crooked roads shall become straight,
    the rough ways smooth.
And all people will see God’s salvation.’”[a]

Thursday, November 26, 2015


It seems like every year that I list what I am thankful for and there are so many things that I am thankful for including my family, friends and all the blessings poured out on me everyday!


I am thankful  for all the support  and prayer from friends, family, my church family and others since Richard has been diagnosed with cancer again!  I do so appreciate it!!

The other day I was reading in Genesis 5 and this verse stuck with me:

Genesis 5:3 (NIV)

When Adam had lived 130 years, he had a son in his own likeness, in his own image; and he named him Seth.
I could just see Seth  following his dad around, looking just like him, copying everything he had done.  This son was in his own likeness and probably imitated everything that Adam did.  He not only looked like him he wanted to be just like him. He probably moved just like him!  He probably followed him around and listened to every word.  
That is what a christian should do.  I should want to be just like the heavenly Father  As a christian I should be trying to imitate my Father in heaven.  I should be following His every lead, His every move and I should be listening every word. I should want to look just like Him!  He is the only one that I should be imitating!  
I am so thankful to my God that sent His Son that I might have eternal life.  I am so thankful that Jesus was willing to do this for me.  I am so thankful that I have a Savior to imitate!  
Who do you imitate??

1 Corinthians 4:1 (NIV)

Therefore I urge you to imitate me.

1 Corinthians 15:57 (NIV)

 But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.

Saturday, November 14, 2015

Are you Ready?


I have been saddened and appalled by the events that have been happening around the world and in the United States.  The massacre in Paris yesterday was horrific and terrifying.  This could happen anywhere.  The murderers that are doing this are everywhere.  One of the thoughts that went through my mind when hearing the terrible news was that I hope that those killed were ready.  Not that anybody is ready for the end but it does help to know that you are ready.

What I mean by this is that you know that if you are a child of God through the blood that was shed by Jesus Christ then you know that you are ready no matter what happens.  I have been reading in revelation and there are things written in that book  that seem to be happening right now. That leads me to this question: Are you ready? 

Are you ready if Christ comes back today?  Are you ready if you are killed just like the people in Paris today?  Are you ready if you die from a heart attack today?  Are you ready if you die in a car wreck today?  You get the picture, you have to be ready!

Revelation 14:9-10   
Anyone with ears to hear should listen and understand. Anyone who is destined for prison will be taken to prison.  Anyone destined to die by the sword will die by the sword will die by the sword.
This means that God's holy people must endure persecution patiently and remain faithful.

Have you been listening?  Do you understand?  Are you one of God's people?  
Will you be left behind if Christ comes for His people today?  Are you ready?

John 3:16
For God so love the world that whosoever believes in shall not perish but have everlasting life.

Revelation 3:20-21
Look, I stand at the door and knock.  If you hear my voice and open the door, I will come in, and we shall share a meal together as friends. Those who are victorious will sit with me on my throne just as I was victorious and sat with my Father on his throne.

Tuesday, October 27, 2015

The Journey Continues:This new cancer

This new cancer that Richard is battling brought a whole new set of problems.  It brought a fast growing tumor with some spots above it. The tumor is esophageal cancer but they are not sure what the spots are.  It is possibly lymphoma but the treatments that are planned will take care of it if it is cancer. This new cancer will bring chemo and radiation.  Radiation will be new to Richard who had chemo of several different kinds with the Hodgkin Lymphoma plus the bone marrow transplants. It has also brought something new that Richard did not want.  A feeding tube.  He finally after several talks with the different Doctors agreed to this unwanted apparatus.

He even asked me if I would still be able to love him with something like that hanging out of him.  What a silly, silly boy!!! I guess he thinks that my love depends on how he looks or what is hanging out of his side. Well it doesn't I didn't marry him because of what he looked like or because he didn't have a feeding tube hanging out his side.  I married him because I love him and always will!  Of course he is a man and I do occasionally get irritated with him, like yesterday when he said those silly words to me.  What he needs to realized is that feeding tube needs to be there.  At some point with the radiation treatment he will have a swollen GI tract and throat, maybe even to the point of not being able to eat by mouth.  When and if he gets to the point of not being able to eat the feeding tube will be a life saver.  Something that he kept trying to reject could save his life!

When the conversation with Richard happened about the feeding tube with the Doctor explaining why he needed it I thought of this and also of how Jesus is like a feeding tube.  He died on the cross for us and became a life saver.  He did this so we might live forever just as the feeding tube could save Richard.  Richard had to accept the fact that he might need this life saving feeding tubing just as we have to accept a life saving Savior.  Jesus died so that we might live!  Jesus loves us so much! He doesn't care what we look like or what we have hanging out of us or what ghost we have in our past.  A person has to accept the fact that Jesus is a life saver. Don't reject His life saving treatment. This treatment was planned, Jesus is the answer to life eternal.

Don't be silly and think you don't need this treatment.  One treatment will cover it all.  Jesus is the treatment you need!

Thursday, October 22, 2015

The Journey Continues:An unexpected development

This morning I headed back to the hospital where my husband has been since Sunday.   Some tears of sorrow escaped from my eyes and started their journey down my face.  I was thinking of the unexpected development that happened the day before.  My husband and I received the news yesterday that Richard has esophageal cancer.

I turned east and when I did I noticed that  the sun  was peeking through the clouds.  A few minutes before that there had not been even one ray of light.  The forecast had called for clouds and rain for most of the day but at that moment the sun had sent forth rays of hope to me.

I realized that just because the sun might be covered with clouds, even all day, doesn't mean it is not there.  I  just can't see it.  That unexpected development  yesterday had left me with dark cloud feelings.  I had been stunned with the news.  I felt like I was on auto pilot until I saw the rays of sun peeking through the clouds.  I was reminded that the Son is always there, even when my outlook is cloudy.  Jesus is my Lord and Savior and His light will be there for me always.

Do you know Jesus?  He is the light of the world! He can turn your clouds into hope!

John 8:12 (NIV)

When Jesus spoke again to the people, He said, "I am the light of the world.  Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life."