The Journey Continues:This new cancer

This new cancer that Richard is battling brought a whole new set of problems.  It brought a fast growing tumor with some spots above it. The tumor is esophageal cancer but they are not sure what the spots are.  It is possibly lymphoma but the treatments that are planned will take care of it if it is cancer. This new cancer will bring chemo and radiation.  Radiation will be new to Richard who had chemo of several different kinds with the Hodgkin Lymphoma plus the bone marrow transplants. It has also brought something new that Richard did not want.  A feeding tube.  He finally after several talks with the different Doctors agreed to this unwanted apparatus.

He even asked me if I would still be able to love him with something like that hanging out of him.  What a silly, silly boy!!! I guess he thinks that my love depends on how he looks or what is hanging out of his side. Well it doesn't I didn't marry him because of what he looked like or because he didn't have a feeding tube hanging out his side.  I married him because I love him and always will!  Of course he is a man and I do occasionally get irritated with him, like yesterday when he said those silly words to me.  What he needs to realized is that feeding tube needs to be there.  At some point with the radiation treatment he will have a swollen GI tract and throat, maybe even to the point of not being able to eat by mouth.  When and if he gets to the point of not being able to eat the feeding tube will be a life saver.  Something that he kept trying to reject could save his life!

When the conversation with Richard happened about the feeding tube with the Doctor explaining why he needed it I thought of this and also of how Jesus is like a feeding tube.  He died on the cross for us and became a life saver.  He did this so we might live forever just as the feeding tube could save Richard.  Richard had to accept the fact that he might need this life saving feeding tubing just as we have to accept a life saving Savior.  Jesus died so that we might live!  Jesus loves us so much! He doesn't care what we look like or what we have hanging out of us or what ghost we have in our past.  A person has to accept the fact that Jesus is a life saver. Don't reject His life saving treatment. This treatment was planned, Jesus is the answer to life eternal.

Don't be silly and think you don't need this treatment.  One treatment will cover it all.  Jesus is the treatment you need!

The Journey Continues:An unexpected development

This morning I headed back to the hospital where my husband has been since Sunday.   Some tears of sorrow escaped from my eyes and started their journey down my face.  I was thinking of the unexpected development that happened the day before.  My husband and I received the news yesterday that Richard has esophageal cancer.

I turned east and when I did I noticed that  the sun  was peeking through the clouds.  A few minutes before that there had not been even one ray of light.  The forecast had called for clouds and rain for most of the day but at that moment the sun had sent forth rays of hope to me.

I realized that just because the sun might be covered with clouds, even all day, doesn't mean it is not there.  I  just can't see it.  That unexpected development  yesterday had left me with dark cloud feelings.  I had been stunned with the news.  I felt like I was on auto pilot until I saw the rays of sun peeking through the clouds.  I was reminded that the Son is always there, even when my outlook is cloudy.  Jesus is my Lord and Savior and His light will be there for me always.

Do you know Jesus?  He is the light of the world! He can turn your clouds into hope!

John 8:12 (NIV)

When Jesus spoke again to the people, He said, "I am the light of the world.  Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life."