It has been a long time since we have had to make weekly treks south to Oklahoma City but next week will be the fourth week in a row. Two weeks ago it was pneumonia, sinus, mouth sores, RSV and graft vs host problems. Last week it was check-up and a cat scan. The graft vs host was not any better, the congestion was still there but not quite as bad and the cat scan showed two spots on his neck. This week the congestion is better but the graft vs host had not changed. They have put him back on anti-rejection medicine, antibiotic, a liquid steroid to help with the mouth sores, and another medicine to help with his immune system. They also did a skin biopsy to make sure that the fight is all graft vs host. He was told that he has chronic graft vs host and acute graft vs host.
The Doctor did tell us that there could be a silver lining. He said that the acute graft vs host rash looks like the kind that normally will get rid of tumors and that the cancers usually don't return when a person is afflicted with this. The key word here is normal. You guys all know that my Richard is not normal. My prayer though is that the Doctor is right.
I do try to get my husband to listen to me when I think he has graft vs host. Normally he doesn't listen, sometimes to the point where it has almost been to late. Thinking about this and how he reacts made me think about sin in my life. How many times do I sin and as I am slipping into that dark abyss it just seems normal. I blame other things and other people but it is just sin. That is the nature of that beast called sin. There is a silver lining though. It is Jesus! He is the medicine that I need. He woos and calls me until I realize that I am in the grips of sin. He than pulls me up out of that deep, dark abyss and back into His light.
What about you? Are you in the light?
John 14:6
New King James Version (NKJV)
6 Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.
