The Journey Continues:14th day of fever

Richard went to bed with a temperature last night and he woke up with one.  It has been high enough that he has taken the Tylenol.  He really didn't feel good this morning but he has already left for work.  He worries so much about how much leave time he has.  He mentioned yesterday that he was down to 75 hours.  He so wants to go on that vacation in July.  He is worried that if something doesn't give he will end up in the hospital and use up his time.  Hopefully the medicine he was put back on will make a difference soon.

I did not remind Richard that a year ago on this day at about five in the morning the doctor had came and told me that his outlook was very grim and that it might be a good idea to call the family.  He was on the ventilator with his lungs full of fluid, his kidneys were shut down and his whole system had went septic.  God was with Richard and I then and He is with us now. God is the ultimate healer!  The prayers were flowing then as they are now and we so much appreciate that!!  Thanks!!!

Mark 2:17

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¹⁷ On hearing this, Jesus said to them, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.”

The Journey Continues:13th day of fever

You can probably tell from the title that Richard is still running a temperature today.  He has been as high as102.5 and a low of 99.3 but he feels pretty lousy right now.  Of course he went to work today and sounds like it was a rough day.  He came in the door dragging.  He is resting now though.

I did talk with the PA today and she said that they did get some results from the blood work that showed that his CMV count was up.  She started him back on the medicine that messes with his white blood counts but it does help the CMV counts to go down.  Hopefully this will kick out the fever also.

Richard is frustrated and he is very tired but he knows that God is in control and nothing can ever change that!

Romans 8:39

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³⁹ neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

The Journey Continues:Fever lower today

Richard said he had a good day today.  His fever never got above 102.2 and he did go to work.  He was fairly cool when he arrived home from work but was running a low grade fever.  He has coughed up a lot more of the green stuff and threw up quite a bit of flem.  Now to me that would be a bad day but compared to the ones he has had lately he feels like it was a good one.  I do think I will be calling the doctor again tomorrow to see if there is something we can do to get rid of the fever and the cough.  Thanks again for the prayers!!

The Long and Whiny Road:The leavings

This morning I walked away from my daughter at the airport because I was hovering, telling her to do this and don't forget this and in the process I was annoying her and making myself nervous.  I may even have been getting on the teacher's nerves just a bit.  I decided to forgo the long goodbye and after a short hug and goodbye I left.  I only looked back once or twice or probably three times.

She was at the airport to depart on the Washington D.C. trip, and I was regretting that I did not somehow figure out a way to go with her.  She had whined about the trip, wanting one of us if not both to go with her.  She even threatened that she was not going to go!  I always just hushed her and told her, "Too bad, you are going!!"  The funny thing is that she was doing great but I felt lousy leaving her to face this adventure alone.  Well, she was with ten friends and two sponsors.  I walked away with an empty place in my soul.  Mind you she will be back Friday but Washington D.C. is so FAR away!

I reached the parking garage and remembered feeling that empty place before.  It was the same every time one of my children left the safe comfort of my zone.  The zone that I usually had semi control of, even though there were hurts, bruises and broken bones that did happen on my watch I was there to sooth them, take them to the doctor and think that I was in control.

My daughter is the last child at home and even though at one time I thought that the leavings would become easier they have not.  I know that this time away will only make her stronger and more sure of herself.  She needs to experience many things without  me or dad.  I can't hover and keep her in my comfort zone if she is to grow and become who God wants her to be.

The empty feeling in my soul eases as I look forward to seeing her again Friday.  I am praying that she stays safe, has a wonderful time and many lasting memories!

The Journey continues:11 days of fever

Didn't update this morning because I wanted to see how the day went.  Richard said he slept well last night but did wake up at two and felt so hot he just took the Tylenol without taking his temperature.  He is at the point now where he can kinda gage how much his temperature is.  If I had woke up I would have taken it though.  He coughed up a bunch of green gunk this morning and had to take Tylenol this morning and this afternoon.  Thirty minutes ago it was down to 99.3.  Hopefully the fever will go away!!!

Thanks for the prayers!

Remembering the fallen

This is a day of remembrance.  For some it is just a day to cook out, get together with families and friends but for those who have lost a soldier it can be a day of grief and pride.  There are thousands that have lost their lives fighting for us.

I was a mom of a marine, army and national guard soldier and the army son deployed twice, once to Iraq and once to Afghanistan.  The national guard son deployed once to Iraq.  I remember the days of deployment and the fear of receiving that knock on the door.  It never came and I will be forever grateful but for many that knock changed their lives forever.

Take time today to remember and say a prayer of thanksgiving for those that made the ultimate sacrifice.  I don't know who to give credit to for this quote but I have always thought it was right.  It is:
All gave some but some gave all.

I think that is appropriate today as we remember those that gave all!

             

The Journey Continues:Fever, Fever and more fever

Just a really quick update.  Richard's day yesterday was a day that his temperature didn't get any higher than 101.5  but he seemed very tired.  He took about a three hour nap before he went to bed at nine.  Sometime about two or three it went back up to 103.1 and he was doing a lot of coughing.This is the 10th day of fever.  It was 99.0 about thirty minutes ago but he is acting like he feels lousy.  He is reading the paper though.

Thanks again to everybody for the continued prayer!